Enjoying life

Its been nearly 3 months since I have been in my new place. I have settled in well and am enjoying being here. I have enjoyed lots of bank holidays and birthday parties here and the amazing weather we had. Too much drinking in The Sickle but lots of fun! I have made some really friends here who look out for you. Mini is enjoying it here too, think she is in cat heaven. Coming home dirty everyday and bringing me a present rabbit or mouse which I not too ecstatic about.

Joe bought a boat which we have had lots of fun on including running out of petrol and having to sleep in a farmers greenhouse at a freezing 1.30 in the morning and row back 3 miles the next day with stinking hangovers! Its not put me off at all and can't wait till he gets a bigger boat.

Forest Elf is going well and have been in the paper and a local magazine which I will continue to have features in.I have 3 stalls coming up in the summer which I am very excited about. If your not friends with me on face book and would like to then you can just find me under Forest Elf.

Joe also moves over in a month and is having a new forge built in the stable yard where he will have his blacksmiths business. The plan is for me to get my own workshop here too in the near future.








So all is good on the living and working side. As my surgery goes, well I am just confused again. I saw a new plastic surgeon up in Leicester in April who was very lovely but thought it was unnecessary to get a mastectomy. This maybe the case but I am so sick of surgery I feel like being done with it all.

I could just have a breast lift but the surgeon said I would need more surgery after I had children or I could wait till after I had children. Well that could be 5 years away and I don't think its good to have an implant in that has dropped and buckled and is making my skin stretch.

I am slightly put off by the idea of having another mastectomy as I did not realise that I would have to have exactly the same done on the other side. This means more skin, muscle and fat taken from the back to put in the breast. I am not too bothered about another scar on my back, after all I will be covered in them. I think its the pain I was in from the last surgery I could not handle again. I am not looking forward to any more surgery and would love to say enough and if my implant had not dropped that would be it and all I would have to have done was the nipple recon.

What ever I have done I am thinking of having it the beginning of next year.Even though its the most depressing time of the year I figured this would be a good time as nothing will be going on and it will be quiet business wise.

I am hopeless at making the smallest decisions and it took me ages to decide on my last surgery. I just hope what ever I decide It will go right this time and I will be happy with it and not have to go under the knife for at least another 10 years!

I will be so relieved when its all over. The whole experience of going through surgery, the pain and being hospital I do not cope very well with.

I hope 2011 is a surgery free year but in the mean time I still have big decisions to make!